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艾菲米亞．辛弗拉嘉齊 Efthymia ZYMVRAGAKI｜西班牙 Spain、德國 Germany、荷蘭 Netherlands、義大利 Italy｜2022｜DCP｜Colour｜85 min

陌生男子邀請導演以他為題材拍攝，因他會對愛人施暴，並為此深深懊悔。導演好奇靠近，一切似曾相識，使她想起了自己的父親，以及多年前逃離的故鄉島嶼⋯⋯。家暴為何不斷發生？加害者是否就是壞人？受害者如何與傷口對話？電影在被攝者生活與導演自述成長之間擺盪，以海濱影像渲染感性，直視幽暗的男性暴力漩渦，也將理解化為普照陽光。

艾菲米亞．辛弗拉嘉齊：「我在拍攝這部紀錄片時，處在一個相當微妙的位置：我的被攝者恩涅斯多在面對自己對家人施暴的過往時，聲稱他的暴力傾向來自於父親，而我要為他調解與說話。與此同時，我也在處理自己的掙扎，面對我20年前逃離的往事。

我與恩涅斯多都是島民，但作為一名在希臘克里特島上成長的女性，我的故事當然與他完全不同。雖然如此，我們的記憶又有些共同特徵，我們都記得父親的行徑，以及家中反覆出現的暴力場面。於是本來是陌生人的恩涅斯多，轉眼間成為熟悉的人物。他在片中交替飾演施暴者和受害者兩角，重演兒時情境，有時扮演父親施暴下的母親與自己；有時則變身導演，指導他人演出自己對妻子施暴的場景。

我在片中不僅止於讉責恩涅斯多，而是試圖在我們兩人的故事裡尋找相似點，搭建親近與理解彼此的橋樑。這座橋蓋得緩慢且小心翼翼，同時卻又脆弱不堪，讓人看到我們共有的傷痕。透過他的故事，在鏡像與放大檢視中，我尋找著自己故事的答案。當他在回顧過往暴力時，我也在自己對暴力的記憶裡找尋方向。隨著整個計畫展開，我的故事逐漸浮現變大，並且和他的故事交織在一起，最後讓我了解到，在療傷的過程中，我們兩人相互依賴。」

Leaving my birth island wasn't departure but escape. Years later, I arrive on another barren island, strangely familiar. Seeking a man willing to unveil his violence, I realise that he also holds the key to my deepest fears, echoing in the violence of my own past. Now his story will never be separated from mine.

‘While working on this film, I found myself in a very delicate position as Ernesto's facilitator, the man who grappled with facing violence that he carried out against his family, the violence he said he had inherited from his father. At the same time, I was confronted by the struggle of my own, coming to terms with the past that I had fled two decades ago.

‘Like Ernesto, I too am an islander. As a woman born and raised on the Greek island of Crete, my story is vastly different from Ernesto’s, yet what we seemed to share were the memories of our fathers and patterns of violence that reigned in our families.

‘Suddenly, once a stranger, Ernesto became a familiar figure. Alternating between the roles of the victim and the perpetrator in the film, he reenacts scenes from his childhood, playing his mother and himself who suffered at the hands of his father. Then, in other scenes, which he directs, he is already an adult who commits violent acts against his wife. 

‘Far from merely condemning Ernesto, I sought to draw parallels between our stories as a bridge of intimacy and understanding. This bridge is built slowly and delicately in the film, and it is left fragile, exposing our shared vulnerabilities. Through the narrative of the other, he who is most distant, I looked for answers in my own narrative, switching between the mirror and the magnifying glass. I allowed myself to lean on his recollections of violence to navigate the tumultuous waters of my own memories of it. As this project unfurled, my story became louder, intertwining with Ernesto’s, until it brought home to me that we were interdependent in the process of healing’. - Efthymia ZYMVRAGAKI 

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